I QUIT

today i quit my job.
well put in my two weeks sounds a little better.
they wanted me to switch to nights.and i really enjoy being off at noon so i was not ready to go.and didnt want to either,who wants to work noon-6. thats lame,i miss all the sunsets and its during the best part of the day,which im thoroughly enjoying.
so i made up a fake landscaping job im doing and told tullys that i can basically work landscaping when i want too.and i was willing to work 3 nights for them.but they said they needed me nights only,one of the losers is fucking up and they want me to take his place.so i put in my two weeks and said i couldnt sacrifice my fake landscaping job for the money and hours they were giving me.
i mean the schedule is great,thats the only reason i was really working there.and i can find something else and only work a few days in the restaruant biz and make just as much $$ as i was making there the whole week.
so today,and the rest of the week,i hunt again.wish me luck miss universe,you always seem to take care of me somehow.

mmm mmm good.

t-day went off without a hitch.finished my leftover bottle of makers from the pre-t-day party this morning.its 10am.now i need to start the stuffing.I went with oyster cornbread stuffing.it was to die for and turned out so well.then the mashed potatoes were done with garlic,lots of it,and feta,with fresh herbs from our garden and some half+half with a little cream cheese.mmm everyone loved those. but the deserts.oh my,the girls did a great job.lily made apple pie,and veronica came with these super chocolate brownies,but her best dish was the tofu chocolate pies.individual and so damn tasty i ate almost all of them.saving some to devour for breakfast the next day along with pecan pie and ice cream.
we played in the yard all day while the turkey cooked.we drank beers and wine and played basketball,smoked hookahs in the shade and laughed alot.then we ate,watched a movie and that was it.everyone was toasted,and too full to move so the movie just seemed like a good idea to finish out the evening.it was life aquatic with steve sizzou.it was okay,not my fav but it kept me entertained.plus bill murray is great so anything with him in it im always down for.

next day was not very productive at all.we rested till like 1.then ken the other couchsurfer came to town.so we picked him up in hollywood and ate lunch at a little cafe on the street.then walked hollywood,and then melrose.window shopping,people watching,etc...
he left to go with his friend to see dennis quaids band which we were all invited but had to decline because we were just whooped and no way could we see ourselves rockin out late in the night the way we were feeling.
and now the weekend is almost over.good friends and good food,come and gone for another year.
i miss you all.

t-day ramblings

I saw 12 dolphins this week on the beach. 4 of them like movie style tandem jumping and everything,it was amazing,and the weather has been too. in the 80s.
the beach is good to me,yes indeed.

then we went to the sex,drugs and rock-n-roll play put on by our neighboors at an art gallery on the beach. we picked up the girls in markos cs shuttle,his big ass expedition,also knows as spaceship 1 to others. a beast of a vehicle that eats gas like no other ride ive seen.well maybe that van we cruised around the west in last summer.but anyway all day was spent driving mad around these packed freeways.traffic is insane here.so we picked up astrid,who was the first surfer i met on my first day in london,then veronica in los feliz,then gret, and were off to the play. stop for a few beers to bring with us(the ivite did say byob so we must),have a smoke,the play rocked on.freakin hilarious,and everyone had a great time with smiles on thier faces.we arrived close to curtain time,star and rochelle already there.and they passed me the flask,then it started.

intermission we smoked more and had a few more swigs.the curtain closed,the show is over.but the party is just starting at someones house in the hollywood hills and the audience is all invited.the house was gorgeaus and the yard overlooked the city.with a path in the garden that leads down a steep stone path to a concrete overlook.magical weekend.
the next day i was like a moron and it took a few days to recover.i didnt even drink that much,i dont know what happened but i hope this weekend doesnt take its toll again,and so far its looking like it might.
maya arrives tonight from vegas,to start our thanksgiving get together,she brings the hookah and office space.
then veronica comes later tonight,after the house goes shopping,of course at the last minute,we need things for cornbread oyster stuffing,and mashed potatoes,and booze to drown ourselves in along with the food.the stove repair man is on his way now to fix our ignition switch. told ya we were last minute.flying by the seat of our pants.specially mine,thats the way i like it,i think,for now. after a long conversation on the bus with a mexican mother of 3 (it was a 4 hour 3 bus ride snaking through the traffic of this city,i told you it was insane.)ive been thinking alot lately about having to get some type of job that i can really do both my travel and eating and get paid for it,but i dont want to be on camera and i cant write too well sooooo
im just gonna keep flying and hope that something comes along,like it always does,trusting in the stars and the cosmos and God and all that keeps me going.
cuz i can travel all i like,but i still feel the need to do something more.no matter where i am in the world,which gets me now thinking even more.
must be all this crazy energy.really this place is nuts.but i love it strangely enough,the news oh my good the news.its a scary hilarious freak show.
then again i do like the big cities at times,ny,boston,san fran,portland.if i had the right job that made me happy there,im in. till then, we rage on.
spunday at the circus in hollywood is on for sat night.the best dj's in L.a show up and star gets us on the list,so when she goes,so do we.
im off to shop,and drink and watch,and forget,and ponder,and.........

yayyy

Its the weekend,oh glory glory.friends in town,lelayna will be here from london,yayyy! then next week is our thanksgiving feast with other guests from all over the globe. i tryed talking everyone into something completely different than the norm dinner.like turkey tacos and tater totts.they voted against me. bastards.

the other night i went to a play put on by our neighboors. sex drugs and rock and roll.it was hilarious.they did a great job.this weekend is the real show,i got the preview screening.cant wait for the real thing.hope we can make it.byob,right on the beach.who would miss that.
yesterday i got off work,went to housesit with star.bad idea.her boss stocks the cabinet with liquour and insists she drink it. by 2.30 i had enough makers for the day.then came the homegrown,oh my,i never made it to the beach for sunset,crashed by like 6pm,but star came home and was all amped and woke me up.rochelle was on some herbal mix that just put her in outter space,nice little group of wasters we had.
so i got up and got smoked again,the girls got creative and starting making earrings and dresses and etc...
I cooked with our fresh garden ingredients,cherry tomatoes,reminded me of our garden in italy,basil,parsley,some garlic and spices tossed in a butter sauce mmmmmm.then i crashed for the night.work comes early when the alarm rings at 5.but to be done by noon,i put up with it.plus the sun rising in the morning and just being up and feeling fresh and ready to start the day,with all the polluted ocean air,i love it.

The weekend is here and im already at markos,waiting for him to get off work so we can start the party. been hangin with the burners lately.such love,mmmm feels so nice.we might go to spunday with them in hollywood,a big ass club with awesome djs that keep the night jammin till the sun comes up.or the play.or salsa dance.
im open for all,just enjoying thouroughly and loving every bit of whatever comes up.
I hope you are too.

explain..

I cannot even begin to explain how blissfull this is here.
my house.is down a little alley off of broadway.its a row of 5 secluded beach shacks ill call them and all of the nieghboors are incredible.the house is small,sooo small ive already got a gash in my head from the bathroom shelf my first day.it was my initiation star called it.the hummingbirds feed right off our front porch.the porch is surrounded by roses,oh the roses,i cannot walk by anywhere in this city without stopping and clearing my nasal passages with that amazing fragrance.one side has a lemon tree,the other orange,and all in between is basil and lavender and mustard seed,and things that if you can imagine it its in there.

its like our own little retreat,and it really feels that way too.relaxing and reading,i do lots of reading now with all this time i have.
the beach is my fav pastime,i love to play in the sand,the water,people watching,and man let me tell you that is the best part of this CRAZY place,sunday drum circles,wandering and clearing my mind daily,being renewed with all this fresh and live energy,ive seen every sunset that you could see so far except for todays.some days the fog is so dense you cant even see across the street and thats excluding those days of course.

work is great,i walked all the way home yesterday,took like two hours but i stopped alot and just wandered at a wanderers pace.i had nothing else to do for the rest of the day so i figured why not explore the area.
i ended up at the beach,and walked it all the way home.
were im going now to rest on the porch and maybe do some late night grocery shopping,i have the late shift tommorow so i can stroll the aisles all night long in a zombie state,staring at the different colored packages and colors of the fruits.

im going to fill my nose with the scent of roses on my home for you.

weekends acutally mean somthing now.

yesterday was my first day of work.
holy crap was it crazy.its so busy and also i was jocking the reg.and was slow because im still learning.but it was a good intro for what im in for.
and now its the weekend.
the last four years weekends havnt meant a thing to me.i hanvt worked a mon-fri shift since the military and all other jobs since,,, ive been working restaurants and every weekend.
it feels kinda weird.so this is what most of the working class feels like.
you may ask,what are you going to do on your first weekend.
well im moving all my stuff,ha,all my stuff. bringing my backpack to my friends in venice beach where ill be staying for now on.its much closer to my work and...much closer to the beach.6 blocks.
ill be stayin with star from moab,and her roommate.a tiny little beach house but surrounded by burners on each side.creative,loving,fun people that form this little community she has going on there,and their excited for me join.
me too.
then tonight we dance.
and it will be back in the 80s here next week. and i work 7-noon.
so after twelve....ill be on the beach.

workin man.

Thats right your talking to the new barista at tullys coffee in santa monica.
so ill surf on down to my beauty stars place in venice,stay there for a bit,take the extra bike to work,hang on the beach for sunsets and enjoy this time here. but im still gonna split some time back at markos couchsurfing at his cs hostel commune we have going on here.lily from switz. just showed up here a few days ago and shes in for the long haul as well.plus hes hosting like 5 others durin the L.a gathering in dec. and i love the dogs too.the ones that want to eat everyone who comes near the chained fence and scared me to death on my first day.
but only took them 3 days to follow me everywhere,and get jealous over my attention. there both mutts,but cute as hell,and i adore them.and makes me miss thompson sooo bad,i fell horrible because i may be here untill may.but anyway,bobby the big ooffy one barrells into me and loves when i pet him.nala the little black bitch,will nip at my hands for me to pet her,and snap at bobby when i pet him too much,and they both stink like hell,which is why they love me so much,noooo-one plays with them but me.

so tullys will be mon-fri.morning shift,and yeah a coffee shop that isnt open brutal weekends,i love it.
the manager loved me,and told me so half way through the interview,then brought the cute little assistant out who also approved.they said they have a good crew and with my personality they are excited for me to come on and join.both have worked there years and love it.it mainly caters to the people working in the mgm,hbo,aol,mtv buildings,so its the same customers who frequent daily,and a good place to get a friendly customer base and make a little extra tip on the side.its part time though so i might pick up a bartending or serving shift also part time at nights to get some play cash,which you need plenty of to play around here.theres plenty of places hiring right on the beach so ill see what happens.

new residence,for a little bit.

So this weekend i made it to L.a to visit some friends. now i live here.
im done work in moab till march 1st, so marko and star and nat talked me into staying here.like i said earlier theres not much in the desert now but my dog,and with luck she;ll still be there when i get back.

so this weekend we went out to dance in hollywood with my friend star.it was amazing,so much fun and the scene was great. before that we spent all day on venice beach,eating,drinking,smoking and playing in the sand,the ocean was so warm we waded for at least a half hour. then we went to the candle cafe for hookahs and beer,i love that they smoke hookahs eveywhere here.we watched the sunset,glorious,too bad all the colors arent natural and due to all the smog,but hey ill take a gorgeaus ocean sunset no matter what the circumstance.

tommorow i have to go find a job because very shortly i will be broke. but i love this randomness.i start for a small vacation to montreal,see a show in vegas and upon waking from a strange dream that i dont remember,i arrive in the smog of L.A
and now will be residing here untill i feel the need to move on.

another deciding factor why i stayed here is my chance to do some work for the homeless. L.a has a huge homeless problem and my roommate works for a non prof that deals with homeless teens.so in between work and play i can use some time to help others.which is what id love to do in order to give something back to someone any chance i get.

im tired.must sleep,my first night in the city of angels,officialy,the previous days were vacation,but now its official,im here,and here for as long as it wants me.

ever pee out of your butt?

eat persian food in L.A

munchies

last night i ate 5 tacos and a cheeseburger.
i love del taco.
mmmmmm tacos.
yeah i had the munchies.

vegas,it started with a slur.

i arrive in vegas sometime between 3 and 4.ready to start my blur of a halloween weekend.much needed. my friends dont arrive untill 7.i have no idea where the hotel is.on the phone i see a familiar face standing by baggage claim talkin on his phone.
after confronting him i found out hes from my town,the guy that bought me the hair gel that day before leaving for europe when my crazy hair was not so crazy and lying flat.zak,a friend of courtneys,his ride didnt arrive till 7 either,we decicded to wait in the bar,what the hell,it is vegas and the weekend has just begun,the bar full with hippies all in the same predictiment.feeding off the vibe of the place we went for the makers,two dollars an extra shot,well make mine a double,and thus the blur begins.......

my friends pick us up,zaks have ditched him,and now he has nowhere to stay.so we let him crash with us.first stop the liquor store.two bottles of makers,a bottle of jack for rikki and were off to check in.
sunset station inn,in henderson,nice place.has everything you need,fatburger,hooters,bowling alley. we stayed in the first night,with a quick trip to aladdin to see if we could get into a show,after no success with tickets at about $50 we decided to call it a night and rest up for the show tommorow.

zak and i start the day at the starbucks in our hotel,i know i know it sucks,but its perfect for dumping our whiskey in for the first kicker of the day.
the show was fantastic,i stayed pretty sober for most of it,just not able to get drunk for some reason.
afterwards we were starving,took the girls to hooters for some wings and beer.
and again we crashed.
now sunday,i got wrecked.started with bloody marys and football in the hotel bar. i forgot the hour change and decided to just drink untill the girls got up.
feeling great by the time were ready to leave,we stop off for some vodka and redbulls before the show. we killed half the bottle in twenty minutes,and thus sunday became a long blur,i danced from show to show,smoked from bowl to bowl and ween and the flaming lips kept my buzz on high,so quickly the show is over.i guess it was just the pace i was at.

we headed home and the girls went to eat,me,to bed,awaiting for miss maya to come take me out.
she arrived and we hit the town.well the bar in the lobby.tequilla got us amped.better drive to the strip before we cant drive at all.
she choose mgm for starters,great choice,we bumped into moabites by random,and then started the night with them,zak was ironicly there and good for him since he had no ride back to my hotel.damn the chances of us meeting up again tonight,good call maya.we started wandering casinos,haunting the bars and blackjack tables and other patrons that passed by my drunken gang begging to be harrassed.

finally late,were starving,and poor maya has to work early.we ditched the mob and headed back home.like zombies we wait for our food in the hotel cafe.it was strange,and i swear all the workers there are on crack.

its halloween now,our friends all leave and its just me rikki and maya.we switch hotels to one closer to the hard rock.the halloween ween concert is there so its closer for us,we can walk and not worry about anything.so lucky to get these tickets.only 5 were released that day and we got three thanks to rikkis man on the internet late last night snagged us a few.i dragged maya along and she was so tired,but it was fun,ween rocked,the place was stuffy and hot,but full of love,friendly crowd shared all their pot with me and costumes danced all around through the smoke.they played their dork rock for 3 hours non-stop no set breaks.afterwards maya just a lump of sleep in my arms.and my halloween weekend coming to an end.
we meet rikki back at the room.her arms full of doritos and jerky and snacks to occupy us around the t.v for some late night cheers,and lucy and whatever else nick at night wants to entertain us with us.maya already passed out,i was shortly behind,made it through the first episode of cheers before my eyes dropped me into slumber,and then the alarm is going off.shes off to work,kisses and the smells of sleep still on my skin she vanished too quickly and so did this weekend.

i have memories of smoke,warm embraces and rivers of booze pouring through my mind,my klinger outfit was a hit,the concert was incredible,i remember wandering in and out of the crowds at each show,laughing and partying with the girls,shuckin oysters like a champ,posing for pictures,talking to strangers and im sure some emails from some of them soon to follow.pot,opium,hash,booze,girls,,,
vegas your an enticing and heartless bitch,thanks for the memories though,i needed this fun to remind that im alive and loving every minute of it,even the bad ones and the hard times.and im sure theres so much more to the story that i forgot,its the basics in a nutshell,but for now i end my slurs,and head back to desert life to save up for my next adventure,im hoping L.a next month.to go "live" again with some friends.old and new.

mistress of the road youve yet to let me down.but i must admit you confuse me at each fork in the road.and i enjoy the challenge.